bumbling bittersweet blackberry bariety baket?

* never realized the effect of an unspoken word, the overcoming power of insecurities, the unwelcome feeling of distrust, the numbing feeling of emptiness, and the truth behind the saying "indifference hurts more than hatred". fine, i MIGHT have rephrased that a bit, but the essence is... well, i guess that part you got.

* how easy it would be to study if i only possessed charlie's powers. who is charlie? for the HEROES (the series) fans, you know her as hiro's crush. for the non-heroes viewers (who are, by the way, missing more than half of their lives) charlie is a fictional character. she's a waitress at a diner in texas who suddenly remembers everything and anything she reads. cool no? again, studying would be easier that way. hay... anatomy would be so much happier!

* speaking of heroes. three guys from that tv series are incredibly GORGEOUS (for lack of a better word). the men playing peter petrelli, mohinder suresh and isaac whatshisname (forgot his surname sorry) all look so incredibly droolable (is there such a word?)... AHA! i know the perfect word to describe them. it's YUMMY! YUMMEHHHHH!!!

*i have never felt so tired in my entire life. this feeling of tiredness i've been having of late has never been upon me. ever. this is worse than the sick feeling during our high school bivouac, even worse than the bio3 jircas climb - well, i have sir julius mojica to thank for that (*sigh* ü) - and far far worse than any football game i've played. i'm not sure what particular part of me is tired. it feels like every single fiber of my being has been worked up to breaking point and i'm not sure if more would be better. GOD GIVE ME STRENGTH!

sabi ng blogthings...

 

The Part of You That No One Sees

You are passionate, romantic, and emotional. You put love first in your life, even though you have often been disappointed by it. You expect to be swept of your feet, and you never expect infatuation to die out. Underneath it all, you are scared that you aren't lovable. Your insecurity has ruined many relationships, as you are unable to see the love that's really there. You are secretly afraid of being alone. Confronting your insecurities is incredibly painful.

What's the Part of You That No One Sees?

here's to you, buddy :)

chem160, zoo3, bio150, math2, lts1, histo2, stat1...

yan ang subjects ko last sem. 18 units + nstp.

hindi kagandahan yung grades ko last sem, sa standards ko. papano, grade monster kasi ako. ang ikinatuwang grade ko lang ay stat1, at yun pa ang pinaka hindi ko inasahan. anyhoo, hindi yun ang gusto kong ikwento.

naalala ko ang isang kaklase ko last sem na sabihin na nating naging ka-close ko. kahit na may katagalan ko na siyang kilala. sino yun? e di si gerald francis orias, better known as GE.

sino ba yun? baka kasi isipin niyo namang gawa-gawa ko lang si ge. batchmate ko sa rural si ge, pero never kaming naging mag-classmate at never ko siya nakausap nun ng usisaan. siguro marami akong na-miss nung high school dahil hindi ko naging kaklase siya. kilala ko siya nun bilang yung isa sa mga comedian sa batch. tipong every time na magkukwentuhan kami nun nila bescham e may maiikwento siya saking antics nito ni ge. feeling ko naman nun e over-exposed lang siguro to. BUT NO! dating ang musical-fest namin nung 4th year para sa music e tunay nga namang level up sa katatawanan tong si ge.

last sem, naging classmate ko siya sa lts1 at sa math2. hindi ko naman inasahang magiging komportable akong makipagdaldalan, makipagkulitan at makipagkwentuhan dito kay ge. kay fafi ge. nagkasundo kami siguro dahil enjoy ako sa pangungulit. siya enjoy din sa pangungulit, pero may underlying na kaseryosohan sa amin. AKALA NIYO WALA ANO? natuklasan kong hindi lang pala puro tawa tong si ge. may pagka-emo din to kapag nalulungkot at mejo autistic din from time to time. pero nakakatuwa pag nagkukwento siya, lalo na tungkol dun sa ka-field trip niya sa ilocos/baguio at dun sa mga krash niya sa lts. siyempre, ako din may mga krash na kinekwento sa kaniya. pero siyempre, nagsasawa din naman kaming magkwentuhan ng lovelife namin. kaya lovelife naman ng iba ang pinakekelman namin. bwahaha joke lang.

naalala ko si ge dahil nakita ko baby pic niya sa isa sa albums ni carlos dito sa multiply. at dahil nagbabrowse ako ng pics ko sa friendster kanina kung saan may pic kami ni chito miranda, na mejo kahawig ni ge. naalala kong hindi na nagpaparamdam si ge at na namimiss ko naman siya. lumipat na ata siya ng school, kung saan e makakapagtapos siya sa isang course na madali makakuha (daw) ng tarbaho after school. sana nag-eenjoy siya dun. at sana e nakakapag-aral siya ng mabuti. at sana ok siya.

sows, nag-mushy-mushyhan nanaman ako. namiss ko lang bigla si fafi ge. kamusta naman kaya siya at ang mga girlets niya? hay nako. magparamdam ka nga ge! :)