before and after

april 16 2008. first day of summer classes.
last day of long hair.
first day of short hair.
hello world!

south supermarket

isang masayang linggo matapos magsimba, naisipan ni mudz na isama kami ni atetam sa supermarket. eto. eto ang ginawa namin. bukod sa namili. hehehe.

in a dome of stars and waves

in a dome of stars and waves, we sat silent as the night. whispered nothings breathed the sea and saw us all but light.

in a dome of cloud and water, darkness covered head to toe. crashing waves and flick'ring flames lent little light to know.

in a dome of sand and sea notes of music filled and played. breezes blowed without a care and we sat by the waves.

in a dome of stars and waves, water flowed from places far mingling with the silence coming from the distant stars.

in a cave of secret thoughts came flooding in the light of day. the dark of night was shadowed by the tricks the flame did play.

 

hypnotic

listening to sarah mclachlan makes me think. hindi ko alam kung bakit, pero pag nakikinig ako ng mga kanta niya, naiinduce ako mag-isip ng malalim at mag-evaluate ng mga ginagawa ko.

i'd always been the noisy girl, the girl who smiles a lot and talks a lot and who's funny and weird in a good way. but things have changed, times have changed. people change, too. people changing makes me want to change, too. and i guess i have. less of the noise. less of the smiles. less of the talk. still as funny and as weird. more concrete than ever.

hindi naman kasi ako mahilig magsulat... CHAR.

seeing my brown-and-green-recycled-paper-notebook makes me want to write. no particular topic to write about, just write and write and write until my brain runs out of things to say. seeing my pen and twirling it between my fingers makes me want to write and write and write until the ink runs out of things to say.

last time i wrote in my brown-and-green-recycled-paper-notebook was yesterday, during the sermon. God speaking, "aren't you thankful that you are able and free to lead the worship service?"

yes, Lord, i am. i am grateful for the chance to serve You. i am grateful for times like this that i can just be free with You. and i pray, Lord, for our brothers and sisters who, unlike us, aren't free. who, despite wanting so badly to raise their hands and sing their praises, are bound by poverty, war, disease, hunger, discrimination, and other such things. Lord, may they find freedom in their hearts. May they know that no chain or difficulty can keep them from Your love.

 

maraming ex

nung nagiisip ako nung kanina lang, as in mga two minutes ago (nyorks), napag-isip-isip kong ang dami ko palang ex. uo, ang dami. eto sila:

1. EXhausted. nakakapagod maging estudyante. nakakapagod physically mag-dedicate ng sarili sa ministry. nakakapagod mag-isip ng mag-isip. nakakapagod din naman na walang ginagawa. ganun.

2. EXasperated. nasusuya na ako sa mga taong parang walang konsiderasyon. nasusuya na din ako sa mga taong parang walang planong makinig. nasusuya ako sa sarili ko pag hindi naman ako nakikinig din. nakakasuya lang kapag maganda naman ang intensyon pero chinachaka naman. yung  ganun?

3. EXpecting. hindi ako buntis. anubaz. expecting... marami kasing ineexpect akong mangyari ngayong summer. makapag-thesis, makatapos ng eng1 ng matiwasay. makakuha ng PE (sakasakali). makapagisip. mga simpleng bagay. at, lalo na, MAKAPAGLINIS NG KWARTO.

4. EXperiments. duh. thesis.

5. EXisting. buhay pa ako. quite thankful for that.

6. EXcited. may namimiss na ako eh :)

tama na. ieekis ko na to :)