attitude x

i thought i was already rid of this stupid attitude. let's just call it attitude x. i started becoming aware of it when i was in my third year of high school, and it simply eats me alive. it consumes every waking thought and it burns and melts the diamond-hard exteriors i have created. it makes the warm, fuzzy, bear-like image shrivel up and turn into Tyrannosaurus rex.

attitude x has been a problem from the very first time i knew of it. it would invade the silence of my quiet moments. it would scavenge the few hours of peace i thought i owned. it would wrap itself around every ounce of strength and crush it to a very fine powder and blow it away into the vast nothingness of the world. it would take the rock-solid facade i had created and turn it into sand. attitude x does that to me.

it's back. i thought i'd gotten over it. i thought i was done with it. i thought i had locked it up in the safety of my past and the ugly fashions of yesterday.

well, as it turns out...

...I WAS WRONG.

murderous

sa pangatlong pagkakataon sa aking tanang buhay naranasan ko ang sakit at hinagpis na dulot ng isang masahol at tunay na karimarimarim na gupit.

noong linggo, ika-25 ng mayo, taong 2008, naisipan kong pabawasan ang aking buhok ng kaunti dahil may kahabaan na itong muli. nagpunta ako sa parlor kung saan ako nagpagupit ng aking maiksing gupit, umaasang baka sakaling magawan nila ng maayos na paraan ang aking nagrerebeldeng buhok.

gusto ko lang naman ng maiksing buhok na magiging presko sa batok ko. gusto ko lang ng buhok na maiksi at madaling ayusin. hindi ko inakalang MAGLALABAS SIYA NG RAZOR AT AAHITIN ANG MALIIT NA BAHAGI NG BUHOK SA BATOK KO. PAMBIHIRA.

sobrang iksi ng buhok ko ngayon. sabi nila hahaba naman to uli. o sige, hahaba nga. PERO NGAYON MAIKSI PA SIYA.

TAGGED NANAMAN (by wanfeng). the additionals...

i got tagged before. dagdagan ko nalang...

9) hindi ako mahilig magswimming. ok lang sakin maligo at maglaro sa ulan. pero swimming is just not my thing. sorry. i'd rather sit beside the pool/on the shore reading while my feet touch the water. yak. emo.

10) you know i'm irritated when i look stupid smiling. kasi nakakunot ang noo ko pero ngingiti parin.

can you keep up? baby boy, make me lose my...

TEMPER!!!

prangkahin mo kasi ako. nakakairita ang pagtatago sa likod ng mga "ah.." at "wala po" at "ok lang" at kung anu anu pang kachorbahan. kahit obvious na obvious namang hindi wala lang at hindi ok lang.