I've thought about who I'd want to spend forever with countless times. I've thought of him since I was a little girl. I thought of him through high school, college, and until now. I've thought of him a lot and I've come up with a list of things that have been changing constantly: from someone who will be able to put up with my crying spells to someone who will know what to cook for me when i am sad, to someone who will know what kind of music to play when i am lonely, and other things like that. The list has been revised more times than i can count, and it is pretty tiring to think sometimes.
I'd also realized that my forever could be someone I already know, but i am not aware that it is he who God has been molding all these years. It could be a neighbor, a classmate, an acquaintance, a former friend, or even somebody i don't know. It could be anybody, and i guess it's part of what makes waiting exciting.
So here is my list; the latest one, at least. He-whose-name-is-yet-to-be-known, I hope I find you to be all of these things and more. If you get to read this, please know I have been praying for you, not only as my future, but as an individual. I have been praying that you open yourself up to God and let Him mold you and transform you into the kind of person He wants you to be. I have been praying that you find God in every single day of your life, that you grow in His Word and into His image. And I pray that you have been praying for me, too :)
HE-WHOSE-NAME-IS-YET-TO-BE-KNOWN...
...loves God first. And that's why he loves me and our kids so much.
...will be a physician 
He will know what i am talking about when i come home and start rambling about glands and howell-jolly bodies and squamous epithelia.
He will know what i am talking about when i come home and start rambling about glands and howell-jolly bodies and squamous epithelia....will be someone i can be partners with. Not just friends or lovers, but partners: in decisions, in laughter, in sorrow, in tears, in pain.
...will be someone i can work with, be it in the hospital, at home, or in the ministry.
...is a servant! He works for no master but God. Everything he does, even his practice, is for God and His kingdom.
...has arms that are strong enough to carry sacks of cement but gentle enough to hold me.
...has hands that are handy with a hammer, but dexterous with a pen.
...loves music and worships with it.
...is a worshiper! We will please God together and raise a family of worshipers.
...is a man who knows how to pray and to seek God's answers. he reads God's word and is not afraid to share it. He will pray with me for our relationship, our family, our children, our friends, and our parents and siblings.
...is beautiful enough that i will never get tired of looking at him in the morning.
...knows the value of spoken words and of action, of touch and of time, of giving and receiving.
...prayed for me.
...is someone i can laugh loudly with. He will love many of the things i love and can be silly with me.
...can be both a realist and a romantic.
...will appreciate advice from Godly people.
...will love me for who i am, and will love my family and my friends as well.
...will love Los Baños and let me practice medicine there, too.