e malamig e

maybe it's the hormones, or maybe it's just the season.

but yesterday was quite an emo day.

normal days do not consist of texting friends seen just last week and telling them they are missed. normal days do not consist of letting the waterworks free at the sight of the words "kung problema yan pwede mo share sakin ;)". normal days do not consist of thinking deeply about a love life-less status. normal days do not consist of replaying every single kembolar ever experienced and wondering why they didn't work.

does the holiday season really do this?

it doesn't have to, right? i mean, sure, Christmas would be lovely if you had someone to share it with that didn't have genes with at least 25% similarity as yours, or even those without similarity but are called "tita", "tito", "ninang", "ninong", "friend", etc, etc. But is it really necessary?

seriously, i've thought about this year after year (excluding the years with active kembolar status. hehehe) and i've always come up with the same cliche answer that doesn't seem to make me feel any better.

what is the answer? ayoko nga ishare! hahahaha :p

anyhoos. then again, Christmas shouldn't really be about people, right? it's about a Savior who baby-fied Himself and came out all bloody and tiny and crying from His earth mom's reproductive system in a dirty, smelly, unsanitary stable filled with animals of all sorts and sizes who was visited by some unknown shepherds and three wise guys who followed an inexplicably large star shining as if it owned the entire night sky. and let's not forget the battalion of flying creatures in glowing white attire with halos and wings (duh, kasi nga flying) singing of the baby Savior's birth.

ah yes, humility in its purest form.

so Christmas is about being saved. and Christmas is about being humble. and Christmas is all about that kind of love that makes someone want to sacrifice something/someone so important to oneself.

so this also means Christmas is about forgiving. and that Christmas is about sharing. and that Christmas is about sacrificing. and Christmas is all love and no war.

so, yeah, all these things kinda just overshadow the dread of a yet-again-cold Christmas and the blah feelings elicited by the corny cliche answers. Christmas isn't about me.

it's about Him.

happy CHRISTmas guys 

this really has to be done

maraming bagay ang gusto kong ma-experience bago ako mawala sa mundong ito. ayan ha, mahaba-habang panahon pa naman siguro ang itatagal ko sa mundo, kaya malaking time frame pa. these are some experiences i think everyone should have at one time or another in their lives.

1. maglakad sa C.Park ng Christmastime tapos gabi (yung may ilaw-ilaw) na may ka-h.h.

- if you've never been to UPLB ng pasko then you won't know what i'm talking about. to those who have, i'm sure you know what i mean. hindi ba kayo nagagandagan talaga dun sa atmosphere na nakecreate ng Christmas lights at yellow lights? ang landi landi lang. siyempre, dapat may picturan din. :)

2. mabigyan ng boquet of roses

- i'm a girl and i love flowers.

3. makipagsuntukan at manalo

- i find the mechanics, the mindplay, and the sheer barbarian-ness (anung tamang adjective ba?!) of a fistfight very interesting. although hindi ko maaappreciate ang mga bukol, bangas, at pasa na makukuha ko, maliligayahan ako sa pagkapanalo.

4. makaperfect ng exam sa med school

- nagawa ko na ito nung elem, high school, at undergrad. sana ngayon din. hay... effort.

5. makapunta sa france, italy, spain, at maldives

- para lang malandi

6. malibot ang buong Pilipinas

- siyempre, gusto ko naman matuklasan kung gano kaganda ang Pilipinas, kahit super chaka na siya tingnan sa mata ng mundo

7. makakanta sa isang Harvest Crusade

- ang sarap ng pakiramdam that you get to share Jesus in the way you know best, and the way i know best is through singing. kahit hindi ako super galing, gusto ko parin :)

8. makatulong sa pagdadala ng isang tao kay Christ

- start making a difference in the world by making a difference to one person

9. makipaghabulan sa ulanan with someone special (who could it be? this job's too big for you and me...)

- by the way, the parenthetical is from Higglytown Heroes, the kids show sa disney channel. there is something very romantic and pretty about the rain.

10. makapagpapublish ng isang libro

- i've always loved writing.. :)

yun na muna. masyado mushy yung iba.

the 2009 wishlist

so, yeah, kakapost ko lang nung mga kaganapan sa wishlist ko last year. dahil magpapasko na, ipopost ko din ang wishlist ko for this year :)

1. arm band for iPod touch

- nangangarap kasi akong mag-jog ng hindi iniisip na baka malaglag si iPod. i already have the thing for my shoes (thank you po tatay!). so.. para athletic. chos.

2. yung orange leather-bound Bible na may free na journal na kasama (nakita ko ito sa PCBS)

- my old Bible has become too big to bring around. although may Bible naman ako sa ipot e mas masaya yung pwede mo i-highlight ng pen yung texts na magaganda. diba? and the journal, please, JOURNAL YUN.

3. spacepen or a parker jotter na black or green yung kulay ng casing

- i think every pen addict should own one. siyempre, pag mayaman na ang mundo saka pa pwede magkaron nung mas mahal na mga bolpen.

4. nike + shoes na pambabae in yellow green

- para may partner yung console ng ipod ko. hehe.

5. planner

- kahit anung planner na notebook-sized, wag na yung pocket sized kasi madali mawala at kapos sa space. hindi ko na kasi mahabol yung sa starbucks dahil hindi ako nagpupunta. hehe.

6. cd ng albertine ni brooke fraser pati ng mga album ng paramore at ni (gasp!) demi lovato

- i'm a girl and i lurve music. ang mangelam papaslangin.

7. yung experiencing God devotional

- by henry blackaby. let's grow in faith friends :)

8. acoustic-electric guitar

- mas masarap mag-worship at kumanta kapag may tugtog. am teaching myself how to play. hehe, sana yung malambot ang strings, kasi mahirap mag bar chords.

9. sketchpad and staedtler or faber castell pencils

- gotta work on the art skills dude :)

10. yung malaking mahabang unan

- for happy sleeping times

11. booklight

- for the times i gotta study but my sisters need to sleep

12. cardigan

- i have jackets and sweaters but i don't have a cardigan. kailangan din natin fumashion. hahahaha chaka.

13. cello or bass guitar lessons

- please please please please please???

14. flowers

- gerbera, roses, jasmine, stargazer, hibiscus, carnation... flowers :)

15. water jug

- hindi yung mga coleman na bitbit namin dati nung elementary. chaka yun. yung mga maliliit lang na water bottle para may dala kong tubig sa school :)

16. shoulder bag na pwede lagyan ng 15.3" na laptop

- in a wonderfully kikay color sana. with straps that don't bite into your shoulders. and a zipper, so that all my stuff won't be extruded without warning.

17. RayBan aviator sunglasses

- yung mukang pambubuyog pero ang cool cool at magmumuka ka talagang shushal. hahaha, pero kahit hindi rayban. kahit yung mga cheapangga lang, carry :)

18. yung makabagong highlighter ng dongA

- basta yung hindi felt-tipped? have you seen it sa national bookstore? it's so coooooool

19. arsenal football jersey

- go arsenal :)

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hope you find time to make your wishlist too :)

happy Christmas season guys :)

wishlist :)

before i make my wishlist this year, gusto kong i-review yung mga wishlist na nagawa ko na previously. i think i only made 1 kaya carry lang :)

i love seeing God's creativity and His greatness. kahit sa mga bagay na kasing petty ng mga nasa wishlist ko :)

wishlist for december 2008.

1. 4g iPod Nano

- well, i didn't get an iPod nano. pero i got an iPod touch. so i'm not complaining.

2. Nokia 5610 or Samsung U900

- 5610 still good in my hands 

3. LIBRO!

- i bought myself a meg cabot book ngayong june. and someone gave me a cecilia ahern book. so it's all smiles 

4. picture kasama si victor basa

- this is till in the process of becoming. hehehe.

5. converse chuck taylor all star sequins in black

- wala parin, saving up for it :)

6. roses

- wala parin.

7. the red scholl pumps i saw in thailand

- i don't think they make it anymore. oh well. so many shoes, so little money.

8. perfect-fitting jeans

- siguro kailangan customized to. so, yeah, wala pa.

9. cash for the kids in tadlac

- am trying to help my mom's efforts. slowly but surely, magkakaron na 

10. pahinga

- i have come to the realization that rest only comes fully when we die. pero yung periodic rests in between bouts of weakness, yes, i have found them countless times :)

5 of 10. not bad.

thanks papa God :)