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writing a song is not as easy as it seems. sure, we listen to a lot of music on thhe radio, on tv, on the net, on our phones, ipods or whatever. we hear the groove-able melodies of different artists, we dance (or attempt to, in my case) to the music the harmony of keyboard, drums, strings, and vocals (and some other instruments sometimes). we listen to the lyrics and use them as friendster shout outs or as blog titles (as i am fond of doing). although singing and/or playing those songs with ease, effortlessly, perfectly and flawlessly is quite difficult, imagine the terrors of picking up pen and paper, thinking of words fitting for the melody and beat, cutting syllables and finding the right words to fit the emotion, choosing the right melody and picking proper chords or notes.

i would cry right now if i didn't love writing.

i'm not bragging (but this statement makes me appear like i am), but i've loved to write since i was a kid. even my elementary school teachers thought i could do well writing. but that wasn't something i wanted to make a career of. i'm a moody writer. i write when inspiration strikes. i write when i feel like it. i write when i the thoughts overflow. i can't write when there is nothing i can write about. although that COULD make me rich, that was not something i imagined doing. being your own boss both thrills and sucks at the same time. so i ended up following the wonderful path towards being a doctor.

then why on earth am i writing about writing?

simple. you know sarah bareilles' song "love song"? well, i'm not writing him a love song. neither did he ask me for one or tell me it's make or breaking this or to ask him to stay. nah. that's not me. i'm writing a song not for him but for HIM. the only Him i want to make music for. the only Him i want to know how excellent a writer i can be. the only Him who knows me well enough to know how true and deep my words will be, how heart-wrenching the melody is.

now if only the words would overflow now as much as i would like them. then i would shut up for you and cry out to Him.